A Channeling To Remember
So my first ever blog! Where do I start?
A bit of background, My name is Gav and I met my twin during March 2016 in a group chat to do with our university. It wasn’t until September of that year that we met in person, and as many of you know, the first meet in person with your twin is an amazing feeling. 2017 hit us and while we tried to make a start of something, we ended apart for six weeks. At this point I had heard of twin flames, but was in that doubting stage about them.
I remember in May asking the universe for a sure sign that she is my twin. The very next day we bumped into each other in a pub, and we began talking again. This should of been a super happy occasion, but she told me that she was back with her ex. I was crushed I won’t lie.
We lasted two weeks trying to be friends before it all exploded. Some of you will know that I have talked about my mental health before in the group. These two weeks were happy and so sad at the same time. I felt like I could explode and that is when my depression really hit. My twin was trying to help me but as anyone who suffers from depression (and this whole journey) will know, you end up doing stuff which really isn’t you. That day I broke a promise to her, and in retaliation she said some horrible things and we cut all contact.
I bring up mental health for a reason. It is something that is still seen as taboo even today. When it is talked about, it can be hard for people to understand. Ways to beat depression can vary for many people. Your job is causing it so maybe you get a new career. Drink is causing it so perhaps you stop. That bad friend constantly brings you down so you try to get rid of them. These are just some examples. But how do you explain to people that the reason you are like this, is because part of your soul is running from you, that the one you love won’t talk to you, or won’t admit their love back (and of course they do love you). Perhaps it can be even harder for the male counterparts in this relationship to talk about. For some disappointing reason it is still seen “unmanly” for guys to talk about their feelings, though through my experience, some of the best guys I know are those who feel and can show it!
Don’t worry I am getting to the exciting part Carol spoke about!
On New years Eve it will have been 29 weeks since we spoke. That may not seem long for many, but it has taken a toll on me. Through the summer I have had to deal with death threats, harassment, losing my home, being unable to work due to depression. Every call out my twin would say stuff that gave me hope, but her physical self would continue to do nasty stuff. I have fallen to such dark places that the only option I felt was to take my life. Luckily I did not! And I am so lucky that my friend and fellow twin Justin was able to help me. I am also lucky that during this time I met Carol, and the rest of you and many of you have helped me overcome my darker nights.
It was during a bad night, that Carol suggested cutting one of the the cords that bind me and my twin. She explained that though this is not the way things should be, the connection was posing a risk on my life and that was not in anybody’s interest. This was so I could disconnect from her and not feel so angry, hurt and upset. I agreed and in December the first of three cords was cut. I felt more me, but still the journey was weighing me down. Carol gained permission from those above to completely cut the connection. On the 28th of December we decided that it was for the best. I would no longer be a twin flame...
At this stage I was a mess, I was sobbing, I was confused, I was scared. Carol told me not to cry. I said I couldn’t stop. She said I know, I can feel it. The weirdest feeling of my life then happened. A tingling in my back and immediately I stopped crying. Carol asked me what I was feeling, and I explained. She told me that was her hugging me. She told me I was not failing her, and I deserve to be happy. I said I wish I could say goodbye, and it was decided to do a duo call out/channeling, where I could be online to answer and tell my twin what was about to happen.
I was asked to do a clearing exercise (one from Carol I had purchased in the summer, but has stupidly not been doing daily). Carol noticed I had a lot of bad energy around me, not all to do with me.
At exactly 2am my twin answered the call out.
I had no idea what to say. This was the first time I had talked to her (or her 5d) in over 5 months. I asked if she was angry and she told me she was because the promise I had broken. This really shocked me because I had never told Carol this! I now had a chance to tell my twin everything and boy, did I keep going. I told her I was angry that she lied to people about me, how she continued to make lies up, how I was angry she picked her ex when he didn’t care about her. She started to cry and I told her despite all this I wanted her!
We talked about how she was hurting me by the stuff she was doing. How I was struggling to keep living. She called Carol a bitch haha, she said Carol tells her stuff that hurts her, and that Carol said I would be leaving her for good, but that's not true. I told her it was true.
She realised that Carol was not lying at all. My twin told me that she was never good enough for me, and that I deserve better. That so I could live the ties should be cut. I told her we would no longer be twinnies. This hit her hard.
Carols net cut out. During all this I felt another weird feeling around me, I knew what it was but needed Carol to confirm it. When Carol came back, she said straight away my twin had come to visit me to see if this was all true.
I asked my twin if she wanted me. She said yes. We made a promise that we would do the work. That together we needed to get better. She asked Carol if she could visit me to do a pinkie promise. I gave permission and she came. I knew the moment she was here with me, I became so giggly and smiley. The tingling I felt was so weird. We made the promise and I told her she needed to go back to Carol, but could she come back and lay with me tonight.
Carol told me a while later, she is back, she is happy to have a last chance. She wants you to go to sleep Gav, so she can lay with you. I laughed so hard.
I hope I have done this justice. It has been greatly shortened due to the personal details of the night. It was an amazing experience and has given me so much hope. I believe another cord was cut that night. The reason so I can heal. Carol, my twin and someone else have all mentioned of a time soon where my twins life is going to change, and I need to be strong to be there. I am worried because this sounds like it is going to be an awful time and we all have bad feelings for it. But I know now what I have to do. I know I have to beat this depression, I have to get stronger, and I have faith again in this journey.
Thank you all and if I may, I will leave you with my favorite quote, from one of my favorite books.
“To have faith is to have purpose,To lose faith is to lose purpose, and to be bereft of guidance. For a man without faith will no longer be true, and a mind without purpose will walk in dark places”
So that was a very exciting read, this is the kind of work I do with many Twin Flames I bring the 5d to 3d and help with aligning both so that they can work in harmony with one another and to create more understanding of their connection.
Now I know some will say that you can never cut the cords between twin flames and that is not necessarily true, with careful training and permission from the ones who govern those of us, those who have the ability to do so can under very strict guidelines. However it is not something that I would ever promote doing as my mission is to unite twin flames. When Gav came to me and asked me for my help this was one of the last things I wanted to do but his mental health had to come first. Thankfully after we did the above work he has found the strength to carry on and the cords are now fully reattached.
I want to thank Gav for being brave enough to write this blog and share his experience with you all. This was not an easy task for him to put his private life out there for you. I for one am very proud of him. I am watching his strength grow every day!! Well done Gav and thank you.
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