Reality Of Being A Twin Flame
My journey, from what I can remember, started at a young age. I knew there was something different, and always felt that there was something awaiting me in the future, like I was special in a way. I always dreamed of my prince charming, who was specially made for me. I believed that there was someone for everyone.
I always felt as if there was something missing, a piece of me missing if you will. A feeling of going home but not knowing where that home was at that point. I could even be home, but I would still feel like I want to go home or out of place. Growing up, I couldn’t seem to find my place. I’ve always been interested in the metaphysical arts, the strange and unknown. Growing up, we were raised to believe in certain things, so I didn’t act or be like myself due to how I was raised. We were raised to believe in God, but I felt there was more out there than that, like a purpose like I’m meant to do something.
As I got older, hiding who I really am, I still was interested in magical art, spirituality, metaphysics, and even spirits and the paranormal. I tried different relationships, but was unsuccessful finding someone for me. I know, now, that all of that was a lesson to learn for me through staying in a loveless relationship too long or just the ones that didn’t work out.
It was 2012, and I was in search of something and started on the topic of soulmates and stumbled upon twin flames. I was still in a bad relationship, and wanted an out. I thought at that point, this was the best it was going to get and I was stuck. There would be times I would cry myself to sleep because of deep down knowing that there was someone who was made especially for me, and they were waiting for me too.
From there, I became obsessed with twin flames, and know why I had been searching all these years. It all made sense to me. But how could I meet my twin, while I was still in a relationship? I know I didn’t want to be with this person anymore, and there had to be a way to leave, but I was so scared to leave. I didn’t feel good about myself because of that relationship. I became obsessed with numbers and synchronicity. I felt something was coming.
Bring in 2014, and had met someone interesting, who knew about the twin flame subject, and I knew I wasn’t alone. This person made an impact on me, experiencing strange things when we met. I had felt this was something different. I thought I had met my twin flame, he was so sure of it. For some reason I wasn’t feeling it and came to realize he was some sort of catalyst.
I ended up leaving my relationship of 12 years because of this person, so that I could start over again and prepare me to meet my true twin flame. I realize this person served their purpose for our journey. I met him, so I was able to end my current relationship, and prepare me to meet my twin flame. We meet people for a reason, and after this person served their purpose whether good or bad, they were gone as fast as they came into my life. It was to help me awaken more to this, because I was the one who will lead the way and assist my twin into our union. After this so-called catalyst was out of my life, I moved on and lived my life single. I tried dating again, but it didn’t work out. I felt as if I wasn’t meant to date at this time. So I just gave up at that point. So I focused on my life at that point figuring out my next plan of action, and focusing on my career.
It wasn’t until April of 2016, my friend of over 20 years approached me with setting me up on a date with someone, who she dated a few years back. I felt strange dating someone my friend has, and asked her if this was ok or not weird. She says she wouldn’t have suggested, if it wasn’t ok with her. I really wasn’t up to dating at that point, after all the unsuccessful attempts. She said to hear her out, and so I did. So I’m like sure, it doesn’t hurt to try and if I don’t like this person, I at least tried. I know he was reluctant too and not ready to really date anyone. So we started talking and connected on Facebook. She gave me his name, so I can at least look him up. So when I found him, I’m like is this him? A question I asked myself is that why did he look so familiar? Granted, twin flames came to my mind, but felt duped before so I was hesitant to think that way at first. So we had talked and we exchanged numbers. We got to talking through texting, and we still have not met at that point. We finally set a date on April 9th.
I was supposed to be in a charity race that day, and it was cancelled due to bad weather. So we were able to meet for lunch, and maybe a museum after. Well lunch turned into the museum, the museum to a movie, then a movie to a late dinner. From the time we met to the time we said goodnight, it was a total of 12 hours we spent together. Now, that was a record for us and we were quite proud of that. When we had met that first time in person, I seen him walking in the parking lot, and I knew that was him and he seen me and he knew it was me. The first meeting was so easy. Time went so fast, and we got along so well. I’m like what is the catch with this guy lol. That twin flame idea was still in the back of my mind, but didn’t want to make an assumption until I knew for sure. I really wasn’t sure about this person, and I really was hesitant to really like this guy, even though we got along so well. I figure I would try to spend more time with him. But the more we spent time together, the more I felt, and more it made sense.
We fell in love. I did things with him that I normally wouldn’t do with anyone else. I could share my thoughts and feelings with him that no one else will understand. I didn’t have to worry about feeling judged, and being able to accept me for who I am. So we continued dating, and it just felt so real and how he said it was so easy with us because we get along so well, and we have things in common, and we can talk to each other about anything.
Fast forward about 6 months later, it started getting rocky around month 5, and didn’t make it a full 6 months. We were in our separation. That is when I approached Carol for her guidance and came to her for a reading. I was in a group of hers for a while now, but had not been on for some time. In the back of my mind I wanted to work with her, but it didn’t seem like the right time. I didn’t know her too well, except for posts I would see on the group page. But she and this group was the first thing I thought of when all of this happened. I know I needed some guidance.
I did a twin flame reading, just to confirm of who I met was my real twin flame, and if not I can just move on with my life. Her reading confirmed that he was my twin, although I secretly wanted it not to be so I could move on. The next few months were difficult and one of the hardest things I had to go through. We were separated, it wasn’t without some hard work on my own, a lot of tears, confusion, and help from Carol, that it got me to a better place.
Let me tell you, I cried a lot, felt pain in my heart knowing he was gone. Everything has changed, and being without him at that point was so hard, and I was confused as to why someone did not fight for the chance for us to stay together. This is a pain that I have never felt in my life, because half of me was gone, and I never reacted this way about anyone ever. The pain of the loss of him was so intense, I could feel it. I think at this point now, we had to be separated and it was necessary for both of our growth. Carol encourages us to not give up, and I trusted in the universe and some blind faith, and that hard work has paid off.
I did a lot of work on my own and also with Carol, and much didn’t happen for some time. But she assured that it does take time, and I continued with trust and faith even though I had those bad days of doubt and pain. But, some time after the first of the year, things started to change. Things started to happen, communication became more, I was reacting or recovering faster. Anytime I had an issue, I dealt with issues better, and became more understanding of him, and myself. I am feeling healthier, I’m working on myself and so is he.
I feel more confident, loving myself, and facing my own fears. After months of not seeing one another, we made a time to see each other after times of bailing out, and finally met for a movie after all these months. I had not seen him in like 6 months. I didn’t know how it would be seeing him again. But seeing him again brought all those feelings back, and we acted like nothing ever happened between us. It was as if we didn’t skip a beat. We are talking more now, and spending time with one another. We communicate better with one another, and I see changes in myself as well as him and it is so refreshing to see that come to light.
If you asked me last year if I would have made it this far, I may have said no. I was skeptical at first, and doing all this work and knowing if it was really worth it. I continued my own work, and with Carol assuring me that all this hard work is so worth it. Let me tell you, it is worth it. I’m feeling so much better about myself, healthier, people have come and gone, and changes have been made. I have to say that we are so very close to union. It is so hard to believe, but this is it right here. I have been better at trusting others, the universe, keeping faith, and letting go of any kind of expectations, and just let it flow. To live in the moment, because this relationship is like no other. It is more than that, he is a part of me and me of him. He is my missing half, one I have searched for my whole life, and many other lifetimes.
I am very hopeful for our future, and feel very good things come to light. He is not aware as of yet what we are to one another, and I feel he will figure this out very very soon. If it wasn’t for trying to be more forward and facing my fears with him that I was able to move forward our relationship. When I took this chance, it helped us become closer than ever. We both have learned so much, and I have Carol to thank. She pushes us to face our fears, and isn’t afraid to tell it how it is. If it wasn’t for tough love, I would still be throwing a pity party. I have no regrets, and this is all very worth it. We are pushed to our limits on this journey, because the universe and divine plan knows we can handle it. It is our strength as to why we can handle so much. We are able to experience a love like no other. We are one, and I’m so grateful and amazed on our journey. Thank you so much from the bottom of our hearts.
Okay here it goes. Let's begin by fully admitting I consider myself a spiritual flake. Yes I have been a witch since roughly 1991 yet there are younger witches out there who know more than me. Yes a few covens have asked me to step up and be a high priest but I don't feel worthy.
I have known I was on this journey just a little over a year. Upon arriving home I had to consult my elders as to why I was obsessed with this woman I haven't seen since early 1988. Of course the answer came with homework. I then found Carol Mary and Reuniting Comes from Within group on facebook! I found it very supportive, and found new elders (some of whom may actually be younger than myself}.
I of course used some of the tools I already had Law Of Attraction, Positive Thinking, then I had the support of all of You. Which brings me to my most powerful tool. The Attitude Of Gratitude! Thank You. I made friends who have asked for and given support all along the way. One tends to ding me when my hands are covered in oil, brake dust or soot, but I kinda find that adorable.
When I read about a Union I send Gratitude. I celebrate it as if it is my own. If you want Union this is a BIG KEY. Celebrate EVERY UNION as if it is YOURS. Trust in our administration, they are our elders. They have been on this journey themselves and they are here to help. I try to live from the heart. My ex energy healer told me my mission is to show the world how to love. I never told Her what I am.
Even those who have wronged me and made my life Hell, I help them as much as I can. No one else is around so I am there. No I will not put myself in harms way but I have taken up reiki, my karmic is my guinea pig on that. Though TF has given me permission to give her distance healing once a week. She says she feels a sense of Peaceful Contentment when I do. I have also started learning guitar. No I won't play for you I still suck, but I started.
Don't forget your affirmations. I made up my 2 favorites 1) I am the luckiest man alive, 2) I live in domestic bliss with (insert TF's name here) and yes I am trying to figure out what my lessons with karmic are.
Even though it seems like I am going backwards our relationship seems to be improving, yet she still talks of going back to Kentucky and/or leaving me. So yes, I have had many text (not as many as I would like but I am thankful for every one I got) and a phone call lasting over 2 hours. We are scheduled to go camping together. TF asked me to bring karmic as she don't want the karmic thinking anything funny. So, there is what I am doing, aside from the services Carol provides and I wish to say Thank You for your support.
Conclusion by Carol Mary
2 very different stories there, but they both have a common aim and that is to get to union, if you have any questions for Amy or Richard please do so by commenting on this blog and they will answer them for you as soon as possible.
Union is the ultimate prize for want of a better word, I do have it on good authority that these two will unite with their twin flame and that it will be quite soon, final lessons need to be ironed out.
I work with people everyday teaching them how to unite with their twin flame, if you need help please do not hesitate to contact me! I love hear from you, readers. I hope you are all having a good day.
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