Twin Flame Living

Why I Will Never Surrender

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First of all, I would like to say a big thank you to Carol for allowing me to share this with you. I appreciate it very much.

I have been on my twin flame journey about 4 years now.. Started year 5 at the beginning of September 2017. A little background for you, I met my twin flame through Twitter,  though at the time not having a clue about twin flames whatsoever, I had no idea why he felt special or important to me when our paths crossed in May of 2013, when his account began to follow mine. I eventually got my insight through Carol after experiencing things I didn’t understand.  Now of course we never did get to discuss any of this, what we are to each other. Our 3D never really got beyond “chit chat”, and it was unfortunately due to someone else, out of spite or jealousy or complete misunderstanding of this dynamic, they decided to butt their nose in and tell him things. Which caused him to do the typical sleeper twin thing and freak out and then block me on Twitter and “disappear” in 3D. I have learned a lot since then. Both about myself and this journey with him and thanks to Carol learned more about him from his higher self, through her.  

This being said our soul connection/5D is VERY strong and with Carol’s help I KNOW this is changing and we’ll be in contact and on our way to union. I trust in her and in the energy and in the other work I’m doing to help myself and our union.  Ok so let’s get down to the real reason I’m here talking with you all, what I feel a leader twin flame is!

What I Feel A Leader Twin Flame Is!

Now after all I have told you, you’re sitting there thinking.. WHAT?! She’s not surrendered, not let go, not given up or walked away from this whole thing considering how difficult it has been? I say no way.. Why ? I was made for this!

There are many twin flame “gurus”/teachers who aren’t in union that constantly speak of these are things you’ve got to do in order to get to union, meaning surrender, let go etc…  Otherwise supposedly it is ego stuff.. I call B.S.!

Here is what I’ve discovered.. Back in the day when I read blogs from those not in union it never once sat well with me to surrender, or let go, or do anything like that. By definition I have thought surrender as far as twin flames meant that you say ok this is entirely out of my hands, I can’t do anything, I’ve done all I can, come what may and so be it and I’ll deal with it then.  

That felt so wrong to me… I couldn’t resonate with it.  So I talked to Carol and she told me that means you aren’t supposed to do it, you’re not supposed to let go or surrender or any of that. Then she said that I was a leader twin flame. That did feel right to me.

I realized that I am not to give up, I am not to let go, surrender, or walk away or even follow the path of other twin flames. What I am here to do is blaze my/our own trail to twin flame union.

How is that you may wonder?

• working with Carol to help us get to union
• working on maintaining a strong heart connections with my beloved, using tools that help me shift the energies between us at the level of our higher selves.
• staying positive, in trust of him, of myself and of the universe and trusting working with Carol
• learn to acknowledge it’s ok to be upset sometimes or down. BUT to NOT stay there in that vibe and get out of it as quickly as possible as soon as you notice it and are willing to accept it in order to change it.

If you do not do that you’ll remain on that hamster wheel for twin flames of doom and gloom. I have learned all too well we do this to our own selves regardless of what is going on in 3D.  That is the other thing. I had to force myself to change my view of a few things, including how I walk this journey.

PLUS!

I had to change how I view my twin flame/sacred partner, for he is doing what he needs to do and this isn’t easy for him, regardless of what the 3D world might look like or that I perceive it to be.. It isn’t real!  You as a conscious being and that includes me, we don’t truly have a clue as to what is going on in 3D with them until they are willing to tell you. So accept what you intuitively pick up as truth because their higher self is their truest self.
As a leader twin flame it is our job to be the strong one, and to love our sleeper twin regardless of what our logical minds perceive or sees going on. Meaning no blame, no judgement, they are as we are, only humans evolving at the soul level for the sake of our union. This is what unconditional love is…

You need to go beyond mere belief and mere trust to having an emotional knowing in your heart and your entire being that your union is manifesting.. I don’t mean some pie in the sky feeling with rose coloured glasses. I mean deep down honest unshakeable at the core belief.  I have never been there until now.. It took some work but honestly now.. I know it like I know my own breath.

Carol has helped me get this far to where I am and where I am in my connection with my twin flame. I still had to do the work and am still doing work in order to stay in the leader zone.  She and I agree that what I’ve been doing working with her and another twin flame teacher/healer that Carol knows I’ve been working with and how this all has brought me and our connection very far indeed. So she said keep doing it!

I appreciate your taking some time to read my story.

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How My Twin Flame Changed My Life

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Imagine, being little. Just knowing that you're different. I remember (and still do it) living inside of my own head, figuring out the meaning of things. When I was little, I used to dream of love being so beautiful and romantic.

When I was 8, I lost my grandma suddenly. As much as I missed her, that's when my gifts started. I started seeing the people who would come into my life. I even saw how many children I would have. It was when I was about 10/11 that I started to feel the magnetic pull of someone who was out there for me. At that age,I couldn't describe it other than we were similar and had the same background. It always stayed with me.

As a teen, I tried to get into spirituality, but really just couldn't. I had a lot of problems as a teen. Deep down I had this longing. Again, I had this feeling that my other half was out there. I just needed to be patient. During this time, I had met one of my soul mates and upon meeting him, saw our future together. Everything came to pass.

At 18/19,I did a lot of inner reflection and that whole other half thing? Yeah, I met him, but didn't know it was him at the time. I was too shy and insecure to do anything. Which led me to another soulmate. Fast forward, I had had my oldest son and his dad and I split.

One day, I happened to be on MySpace. I saw this guy and my first thought was "he's mine!!!" Funny thing is, I'm not that kind of person. We became friends. I got back with my son's dad and got pregnant. 7 months pregnant and we had to move. Ended up moving to the town where my twin lived. I comforted myself by thinking, well, I'll get to know twin. A few years later we became friends on Facebook. I was still caught up in fear. I didn't think I was pretty enough, etc. Our conversations always flowed. Then one day, I started working out. Building my confidence. Posting my pictures that he ended up liking.

And then it happened.

It was surreal, us finally being together. All of my self doubts and insecurities melted away when I was in his arms. Everything led me to that moment and for that I wouldn't change a thing. Even it taking as long as it did to find out about twin flames.

Here is how my twin has changed me. Self doubts and insecurities are ok, but don't let it control you,or you'll find yourself missing out on a lot. I learned it's ok not to rush into anything, timing is key. I made my twin wait two months before getting together with him. Trust in the Universe and trust your gut. I've opened up to my twin and he's done the same. By following my instinct. He's definitely gotten me out of my comfort zone, which has helped me (and him) to grow into better people. His faith in me is unwavering. He's always been and continues to be supportive of me and what I do. My twin has taught me how to not take everything in life so seriously. And unconditional love. How to love him and to love myself as well.

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A World Of Change

Feb​ ​1,​ ​2010.

This​ ​is​ ​the​ ​day​ ​my​ ​life​ ​changed​ ​for​ ​the​ ​better,​ ​the​ ​day​ ​my​ ​twin​ ​and​ ​I​ ​literally​ ​ran​ ​into​ ​each​ ​other
while​ ​passing​ ​through​ ​a​ ​doorway.​ ​ ​I​ ​knew​ ​of​ ​him​ ​prior​ ​to​ ​that​ ​day,​ ​but​ ​never​ ​really​ ​gave​ ​him​ ​a
second​ ​glance.​ ​ ​He​ ​sang​ ​at​ ​one​ ​of​ ​our​ ​local​ ​bars,​ ​and​ ​was​ ​friends​ ​with​ ​mutual​ ​friends​ ​of​ ​mine.
My​ ​daughter​ ​was​ ​in​ ​the​ ​final​ ​running​ ​for​ ​a​ ​singing​ ​contest​ ​he​ ​was​ ​judging.​ ​

​Fast​ ​forward…
    
I went​ ​through​ ​many​ ​times​ ​of​ ​him​ ​saying​ ​that​ ​he​ ​couldn't​ ​do​ ​it​ ​anymore,​ ​him​ ​running,​ ​me​ ​always
asking​ ​why,​ ​neither​ ​one​ ​ever​ ​really​ ​understanding​ ​why​ ​it​ ​was​ ​so​ ​difficult​ ​to​ ​turn​ ​and​ ​walk​ ​away.
Not​ ​until​ ​he​ ​came​ ​to​ ​me​ ​after​ ​being​ ​with​ ​him​ ​for​ ​4​ ​years,​ ​telling​ ​me​ ​he​ ​had​ ​feelings​ ​for​ ​another
woman​ ​did​ ​it​ ​finally​ ​hit​ ​home.​ ​ ​All​ ​the​ ​insecurities,​ ​all​ ​the​ ​“ what's​ ​wrong​ ​with​ ​me?” ​ ​ ​But​ ​still​ ​even though​ ​he​ ​was​ ​trying​ ​to​ ​build​ ​something​ ​with​ ​her,​ ​he​ ​couldn't​ ​walk​ ​away​ ​from​ ​me.​ ​ ​

This​ ​is​ ​when​ ​I got​ ​into​ ​crystals​ ​again​ ​and​ ​actually​ ​studied​ ​different​ ​ones​ ​and​ ​how​ ​they​ ​heal.​ ​ ​Reiki​ ​was introduced​ ​to​ ​me,​ ​I​ ​learned​ ​it​ ​and​ ​became​ ​a​ ​level​ ​2​ ​practitioner.​ ​I​ ​learned​ ​to​ ​heal​ ​my​ ​“ hurt” through​ ​the​ ​energy​ ​of​ ​the​ ​divine.​ ​ ​I​ ​also​ ​got​ ​the​ ​chance​ ​to​ ​try​ ​it​ ​on​ ​my​ ​twin.​ ​ ​This​ ​started​ ​my more​ ​expansive​ ​spiritual​ ​journey.​ ​

​I​ ​was​ ​raised​ ​a​ ​Lutheran,​ ​but​ ​the​ ​only​ ​thing​ ​that​ ​resonated​ ​and stuck​ ​with​ ​me​ ​was​ ​unconditional​ ​love​ ​and​ ​my​ ​want​ ​to​ ​perfect​ ​it.​ ​ ​I​ ​also​ ​had​ ​a​ ​fascination​ ​with​ ​the yin​ ​yang​ ​and​ ​together​ ​they​ ​go​ ​hand​ ​in​ ​hand.​ ​ ​Something​ ​radically​ ​clicked​ ​and​ ​I​ ​wanted​ ​to​ ​use this​ ​energy​ ​healing,​ ​and​ ​since​ ​I​ ​would​ ​rub​ ​his​ ​neck​ ​and​ ​back,​ ​massage​ ​school​ ​called​ ​to​ ​me. This​ ​is​ ​my​ ​mission​ ​found​ ​through​ ​him​ ​7​ ​years​ ​later..​

​But​ ​how​ ​has​ ​he​ ​changed​ ​me?​ ​From​ ​each falling​ ​out​ ​we​ ​had​ ​I​ ​learned​ ​how​ ​to​ ​look​ ​inside​ ​myself​ ​first,​ ​to​ ​see​ ​what​ ​happened​ ​in​ ​my​ ​life​ ​that may​ ​cause​ ​me​ ​to​ ​feel​ ​the​ ​way​ ​I​ ​did.​ ​ ​Vary​ ​rarely​ ​did​ ​I​ ​“ blame” ​ ​him,​ ​but​ ​sought​ ​out​ ​information​ ​to try​ ​to​ ​understand.​ ​ ​Twin​ ​flame​ ​wasn't​ ​even​ ​a​ ​thing​ ​for​ ​me​ ​till​ ​he​ ​took​ ​off​ ​with​ ​her.​ ​ ​We​ ​always​ ​felt a​ ​special​ ​connection,​ ​something​ ​spiritual.​ ​ ​He​ ​has​ ​taught​ ​me​ ​and​ ​shown​ ​me​ ​beauty​ ​in everything.​ ​ ​A​ ​man​ ​with​ ​a​ ​keen​ ​eye​ ​who​ ​can​ ​see​ ​beauty​ ​in​ ​a​ ​mud​ ​puddle…    ​ ​his​ ​pictures​ ​are amazing,​ ​not​ ​only​ ​of​ ​things​ ​around​ ​him,​ ​but​ ​of​ ​me​ ​too.​ ​ ​
He​ ​has​ ​accepted​ ​in​ ​me​ ​things​ ​that​ ​I​ ​had troubles​ ​accepting,​ ​and​ ​that​ ​gave​ ​me​ ​a​ ​stronger​ ​sense​ ​of​ ​self,​ ​a​ ​push​ ​to​ ​be​ ​better,​ ​do​ ​better. He​ ​has​ ​shown​ ​me​ ​the​ ​meaning​ ​of​ ​gratitude.​ ​Never​ ​have​ ​I​ ​ever​ ​had​ ​a​ ​man​ ​thank​ ​me​ ​after​ ​having relations,​ ​and​ ​like​ ​clockwork​ ​every​ ​time​ ​I​ ​was​ ​thanked.​ ​ ​I​ ​used​ ​to​ ​wonder​ ​why​ ​would​ ​anyone thank​ ​someone​ ​for​ ​something​ ​that​ ​was​ ​considered​ ​yours…    ​ ​It​ ​took​ ​me​ ​a​ ​long​ ​time​ ​to​ ​realize​ ​that nothing​ ​is​ ​truly​ ​“ ours” ​ ​and​ ​thanking​ ​your​ ​partner​ ​shows​ ​how​ ​much​ ​you​ ​appreciate​ ​that​ ​they​ ​took time​ ​for​ ​you,​ ​they​ ​chose​ ​you,​ ​it's​ ​not​ ​a​ ​right,​ ​but​ ​a​ ​privilege​ ​and​ ​can​ ​be​ ​taken​ ​away​ ​at​ ​a moment's​ ​notice.​ ​

​I​ ​am​ ​a​ ​better​ ​woman​ ​from​ ​his​ ​generosity,​ ​this​ ​journey​ ​has​ ​prompted​ ​me​ ​to seek​ ​and​ ​further​ ​my​ ​spirituality.​ ​ ​Has​ ​prompted​ ​me​ ​to​ ​open​ ​up​ ​to​ ​my​ ​true​ ​authentic​ ​self​ ​through love.​ ​ ​Not​ ​to​ ​mention​ ​all​ ​the​ ​many​ ​relationship​ ​gurus​ ​I​ ​spent​ ​money​ ​on​ ​to​ ​learn​ ​how​ ​to​ ​speak from​ ​the​ ​heart​ ​and​ ​not​ ​from​ ​fear.​ ​ ​This​ ​continues​ ​to​ ​be​ ​a​ ​work​ ​in​ ​progress.​ ​ ​LOA​ (law of attraction)​ has​ ​also​ ​been important​ ​in​ ​learning​ ​my​ ​vibration,​ ​and​ ​recognizing​ ​those​ ​around​ ​me​ ​with​ ​a​ ​lower​ ​vibration, continuous​ ​complaining​ ​and​ ​gloomy​ ​outlook​ ​on​ ​things.​ ​ ​I​ ​know​ ​with​ ​continued​ ​practice​ ​I​ ​can​ ​do it.​ ​ ​My​ ​latest​ ​endeavor​ ​is​ ​learning​ ​imago​ ​therapy​ ​and​ ​praying​ ​to​ ​be​ ​able​ ​to​ ​implement​ ​it​ ​in​ ​the near​ ​future.​ ​ ​

Acceptance​ ​=​ ​no​ ​judgment​ ​=​ ​unconditional​ ​love​ ​=​ ​freedom.​ ​ ​No​ ​matter​ ​what​ ​stage​ ​I or​ ​my​ ​twin​ ​is​ ​in.

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A Few Words From Carol Mary

Hi All, 

Thank you so much for taking the time to read these stories, they are all true to life and written by some of the members in our Facebook group, Reuniting Comes From Within. This group is like a family, we share our hurts and our triumphs, there is no judgement here and no ego squabbles, we all have one common goal and that is to get to union and to stay in union! 

www.facebook.com/groups/reunitingcomesfromwithin/ click here if you would like to join but please answer the questions as you can not be accepted if this is not done! 

Would you like to share your story with others? You can of course do this anonymously. Part of our twin flame journey is learning from others, how did they get to union, how is their journey progressing, what can you gain from reading about what they have done! 

One thing I have noticed is that the best people to learn from are united twin flames, they got to union because they went through everything they needed to do so to get to union, I took all my advice from a united twin flame, sadly this person has passed away now but he was my rock on my road to reunion. Align yourself with united twin flames, learn and grow, listen, watch and heed what is going on and you will soon figure out what you need to do! 

If you have any questions for Kimberley, Brandi or Tara please use the comment section and I am sure they will be very happy to answer!! 

Always remember that Reuniting Comes From Within!! 


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Much Love


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